I wanted to wait until after my second distance healing session with you mostly because on the first one I was really focusing on my relationship with [my husband] not myself. I did experience a shift in my perception of [my husband] which I already shared with you. So the first distance healing brought about a more compassionate heart and mind towards my relationship with [my husband] which had turned towards anger and resentment, not love and kindness as we had started out at the beginning of our relationship. This feeling from me has also been reflected back to me from [my husband]. We are more playful, lighthearted and more forgiving of each others' imperfections.
On to my second distance healing, I was more focused on me and my own healing. The first word that came to mind from my heart when you asked am I feeling the energy was "peaceful". [Since there were only two individuals in this circle, I had elected to communicate with them via text messages at the start and stop of the healing phase of the circle.] A new calm settled over me, the voice telling me I had to get this done, do that, clean this, pay a bill all silenced. I was calm, happy to be in the moment, listening to soul music, happy to be me just as I was. The message was clear to me. I no longer had to hold on to the the frightened little girl in me that was curled up in a ball of fear, holding herself in a tight ball to keep safe. My wings spread wide and I soared high above the mountains and the sea and I was free! I have let go of the past and I am recognizing a new lighter step in my walk and am dancing and singing and all of a sudden I want to clear all the clutter and simplify my life. At the same time, my heart beat has slowed down. I am slower and take more breaks. Instead of a busy bee flying from project to project I am a butterfly fluttering slowly enjoying the currents of the wind, smelling the roses and just enjoying being me doing nothing at all.
I received a text from you at 3:33pm. Three is my number, it was very telling. I believe in synchronicity and that was my first sign from my angels. The second one came this morning when I was walking my springer spaniel Duke. He has always been my guardian and whenever we came across another dog while walking the neighborhood he tends to bark and let the other dog know he is my protector. I have always had a fear of dogs since childhood due to several different attacks by dogs in my past. When a standard poodle came running towards me with children chasing him because he escaped the car. I asked Duke to sit, I got out a treat from his treat bag gave it to the dog and the children walked up and he followed them back to the car due to the treats I gave them. Duke never barked at the dog and I had no sense of lingering fear of dogs. After all I am an adult now and the dog did not set of any alarm bells in my head. Duke has been in our family for ten years, and he has been the glue that has held our family together. I stopped walking him this winter due to the extreme cold and lousy weather and due to pain [my husband] has been unable to join us. I decided it was time for Duke and I to start our walks again, rain or shine.
I still have some aches and pains in my shoulder but the tightness in my chest and stomach are gone and I have a new joyfully lighter step and spirit and kind of reawakening of the more carefree, happy person I used to be before the anger and fear took over my heart.
I had so much fun last night with my friends who we play cards with and they noticed a lighter, happier side to me. My good friend of 20 plus years commented to me, "what did you win the lottery or something? I haven't seen you this happy in a long time." I smiled and just stated, "No, I am choosing to be happy in the moment."
The wisdom that came from my heart was not that I was low on energy but I had to watch how I used my energy and gave it away and that I have a choice on what and who I spend my time with. Also, that my words and actions affect all around me and I must take care in what I say and how I say it. So I am choosing to sing more, play more and rest more as needed.
Thank you for your guiding light and healing energy. I am so happy to reconnect with you after all these years and that you have decided to use your gifts wisely. I hope to do the same.